Beautiful moon night

SMALL TINY LITTLE THINGS ADD UP TO A HUGE MOUNTAIN. It might seem nothing but im so depressed lol.

Blueblack.

A small cut that gives you sharp pain and hurts damn badly in contact with water. And when nobody gives a f when you said it hurts.

Know that someone forgot about you although it was not on purpose but ouch for that instance of knowing.

Forever paranoid and will check a few times before I alight every time, I totally forgot bout my phone this time and it was left on a freaking bus. Heart aching and im feeling sorry for dropping it a few times before although it's my temporary phone, now I realised how freaking important you are to me although you had been driving me nuts for so long.

Saw the bus that I should be taking, leaving while im still at the opposite of the road. Not gonna fcuking wait for 20 plus minutes this time round.

Rushed over from bus stop to mc while tolerating the pain my blisters were giving me. Disappointment felt when I couldnt saw my cousin and I cant fcuking contact anyone at that moment now that my phone is gone.

Pressed the lift button and it just went up in front of my eyes. Freaking laughing out loud at that moment while thinking that the whole world is against me, even the lift.

WOW. Everything is going against me, what a perfect coordination. And so I called my cousin with house phone and she was waiting for me at the bus stop.

I am sorry, nothing good is happening for this night. No one will feel what im feeling now and obviously no one can do anything to help the situation. It's okay and it's normal. I will be like them if im not the one that loses the phone. But still, it hurts. I am trying to take things easy now. WANNA CRY BUT DOESNT EVEN HAVE THAT FCUKING MOOD TO. It's just not my day. How can so much things happened when im not even acting in a drama z. Not wanna leave house at all cause im so afraid of being lost while cant contact anyone when im outside alone.

Pray hard. If it's mine, it will come back to me. Right?

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DREAMS. I was just talking to my mama bout dream catcher the night before and I dreamt quite a number of dreams that night LOL. I shouldnt be remembering any dreams clearly but there are three I still can recall. ~Awesome oh wow, my dreams will freak you out~ Nah.
One dream was about me donating TWO BOTTLES OF BLOOD straight. I didnt know I am so generous huh. And I remember me tasting it, the taste of the blood is still wandering in my head.. ERM. I dont know what's with the process that made me taste it lol. Am I drinking it? Is that how I donate, by mouth? I was on the verge of fainting? I felt skinny lol. Maybe it's time for me to really exercise and slim down fuuu.
Another one was bout vampire or half human? Lol I dont know. A group of us, in a unit? Get into some trouble with floating stuff and all gathered in the toilet. The toilet suddenly became my house toilet -.- What a change of place and it's so smoothly lol. Dreams are forever like this, good in changing and merging any places together. We were sitting down. Preparing to communicate with the floating stuff, I THINK. And the process includes putting your face into the bowl of flour and water? and erm chant. I last minute went to take my amulet in another room and saw a half human thingy. His nails are literally triangles and he followed me back to the toilet where everyone was. He wanted to place his nails into the skin on my neck while I blocked it with my hand. And the nails went into my hand instead. WHEN THING WAS GETTING EXCITED AND PANICKING, I WOKE UP. I wanna know how thing continues by going back to sleep but I cant z. The most stupid thing is I checked my hand if there was any scar and I swear I kinda felt some pain on my hand zzz.
I wonder what's with my mind recently that can store so many weird stuffs. I am still living a simple single smooth life. It is good and it is bad. Oh bitch, how contradicting it is again. My dreams are kinda messed up I think. It's night time again, going LLL now. Comemon, I want my old dream back, that guy that loves me and is loved by me, BUT THE DREAM DIDNT SHOW HIS FACE AT ALL. Goodnight, Abx.

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TAKE THAT. IM LEGAL.

Over exposed photo but I like.

Third time to club. This time @ ZIRCA with SU and EEP. WOOHOO. Best experience ever, for now.

TGIU ♥

They are important people in my life now, from Onuris, all the way until we were GLs, all the way until now. The Girls In Underwear. HA. Although unhappy thing happened on that day, I enjoyed myself at the last few hours of my big day. I was disappointed in myself.. but at least I learnt something. Dont need no surprises, just you guys by my side, that's enough. My wish was for everyone to be happy. I hope we can be back to last time, when everything is cool within us. Good friends are when you are comfortable, easy and can be yourself in front of them. I effing hate that I wont forget what happened and the feeling I had on that day, f it.

Nari Fool

Joel came over at night, 1159 to wish me HA. He brought a bottle of Hoegaarden for me hehe. 

Freyr. Such a pity that this is blur :/

Thank you Freyr, especially 'F's ♥ The leopard prints bra HAHAHA. I was told that it was supposed to be a joke, turned out that Hill got membership, that's why they bought it. Haha so cute. Kinda disgraced but still, thank you guys for the shocking surprise haha. I am trained to be thickskinned (cause GLs not shy) but got limit eh hahaha. It was embarrassing, as if the whole MP shouted WEAR THE BRA/ 36B. TSK. Though the size kinda wrong lol. And whoever that zam my hair with choco fudge cake, watched out HAHA. Love them hehe.

HAHA from Hill's instagram.